I need to say a big thank you to my better half, Elias, for staying up with me all night and giving me feedback on my writing. His input and encouragement gave me heaps of confidence in my work. I enjoyed writing this short essay the most out of the three I was tasked to write. It’s talking about the two things that mean the most to me; sobriety and family. Enjoy!
Essay 2: Describe a significant challenge or change that has happened in your life in the last ten years. How did you respond and what did you learn about yourself? (Limit to 350 words.)
In the past ten years I have overcome so much to be the woman I am today. I had been fighting a losing battle with alcoholism and addiction for the majority of my life. My father passed away due to a fatal combination of alcohol and sedatives that his frail out heart could not handle. I then flew off the handle. I was self medicating my depression, anxiety and grief. I was trying to put out the fire of my broken past with gasoline. There was no light at the end of my tunnel and I swiftly hit rock bottom.
Luckily, I did not meet my untimely demise when I reached my rock bottom. Instead, I admitted I had a problem which I could not solve on my own. This was just the tip of the iceberg of my long road of recovery. On November 12th, 2013 I got sober and started going to twelve step recovery meetings on a regular basis. Wonderful parts of life that I had never thought were possible for me slowly started happening.
I discovered spirituality, got a job and started contributing to society. Recovery taught me that my main problem was me. The solution was always to be of service to others and get out of my own head. I was finally able to deal with the traumas of my past in a healthy way. By removing what was no longer working for me I made space in my life for the stuff that really matters, like gratitude, friendships and family.
My life kept getting better and better. Then one day I found out I was going to be a mother. It was the happiest moment of my life. Looking back to when I was active in my addictions, I never thought I could get sober let alone be someone’s mother. But there I was, receiving the gifts of sobriety in the form of motherhood. My sobriety taught me how to be a loving mother to my children. I now have over six years sober and I am not giving up no matter what.