Peace Out 2019

  • I faced my abuser. It was scary and took all my strength and courage to continue moving forward but I finally stood up for myself. No going back, no denial and no more being someone else’s private emotional punching bag.
  • I concluded a very nasty custody battle. I didn’t make enough money to afford any legal representation when the trial finally happened. I was just barely over the federal gross monthly income limit to qualify for legal aid. By the time the trial came along I had to represent myself and it was terrifying. But if I can do that, I can fucking do anything!
  • Took a promotion into a new department, with better pay and closer to my baby Florence.
  • I bought my first car all on my own. It’s this cute little blue Rav4 that was the same year, make and model that my grandma used to drive when I was younger. It had a lot of miles on it but was a great car.
  • I drove that sweet little car of mine half way across the country pregnant, all by myself and rode a giant jackolobe on the way. *See photo
  • After accepting my new job, I moved to Portland.
  • I worked my ass off and got my own apartment. Very modest, cozy little home. It’s nothing fancy but it’s home.
  • I got pregnant, found out I’m having another baby girl. It took a lot of courage because I was on my own for the most part but it was AWESOME because I was on my own for the most part. Walking through that alone gave me so much confidence in myself. Again, if I can do this, I can do anything.
  • Rocked the shit out of that pregnancy by myself for the most part. I worked throughout my entire pregnancy, did not miss one doctor’s appointments and walked through every stressful moment. My friends and chosen family really had my back and I am blessed to have found a solid support system here in Portland. I had a few unforseen health complications during my pregnancy that made the last trimester way harder but I walked through it. And once again, if I can do this, I can do ANYTHING!
  • Started dating the love of my life, Elias. It’s a long distance relationship, (for now) he’s in Seattle and I am in Portland but we make it work. It’s not too far of a drive but it’s far enough to where we have to work around schedules and plan out our visits. He is my best friend and I am so lucky to have such an amazing partner who treats me like an equal. He is my twin flame, we come from the same soul and I adore him inside and out. Never have I ever had a partner in my life that has been this good to me. He is just simply wonderful and it doesn’t hurt that he’s super hot too.
  • I gave birth to a beautiful healthy and happy baby girl! I had a successful VBAC with very minimal interventions. With the help of three loving birthing support peeps, Barb, Jenna and my gorgeous boyfriend Elias. It was exactly the birthing experience I had hoped for. Giving birth to Phoenix was by far my greatest accomplishment of 2019. She is just wonderful and brings so much joy and love into my life. She’s a very very happy baby. Her smile makes me melt. And you know what I learned from this? If I can give birth to such an amazing little human, I can do ANYTHING!
  • I got to make a lot of amazing memories with my kids. They are best of friends and love to play together. Florence is such a great big sister and always wants to help caring for her little sister Phoenix.

So what have we learned? You never really know how strong you are until you have to use your strength to get through something. Struggles build character and gives hope to the people watching you walk through it. Never give up, keep going!